Happy New Years

Praise be to  Jehovah and Father of our Lord  Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through te resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. 1Peter3:21NIV

This is the day that Jesus Christ rose from his tomb after being crucified on the cross. So, why shouldn’t I make this my personal new year. Where 365 days of the year starts now.  Because through Christ’s death and resurrection, we are all redeemed from our sins and transgressions. As well as, bad eating habits, no exercise and much more.

So, With that being said let’s start this year knowing that we’re  human beings, who’ll fall off track every day or every minute. But, that’s the beauty of the gift of Jesus Christ and the instructions that are given in the Bibles. Amen imPerfectlyHis2017©

 

 

Answered Hope

 Your word is a lamp before my feet and a light for my journey ~Psalms 119:105

‘Hope in Chaos’, ‘looking for the light in darkness’  are two phrases I seem to grasp at, as  I look around this broken world. Including my own seemly overwhelming problems. Where each day presents more insecurities in my job, relationships and again finances (for a stable future.)  Which  gives me anxiety and a need to become the wrong type of a people pleaser. (Because being liked helps). To people who clearly want to see me fail.  Strange how that sort of attitude can slow my progress in seeing any hope.

But, I can’t allow it to, though it’s difficult. Especially, now that it’s a new year with unseen obstacles of its own.  Even if seconds seem like hours during some of my darkest moments. I need to do my best  not  to submit to depression, anger and hatred. Nor, will I allow an angry or hurt person, to use me as their mirrored inner turmoil.

There certainly  isn’t any hope in that.  Nevertheless, I have the power to choose to show peace, instead. By, looking for joy in the smallest things. Or something  simple, no cost, but priceless to me. Those, things could be anything, like a thank you, when I’ve felt under appreciated at work.

I will accept it. Own it and feel it in my heart. Because, I need to ,hear that moment. Or, a friend might text me saying, “the spirit of the Lord spoke to her and asked her to pray for me”. Which is big and a true story. Still, I can’t always rely on people to pick me up, I have to do for myself. 

In fact, I have to become active  during my dark place, that I share with others (work, school, home, etc.) immediately. This is where I wish I could have a cure-all answer on how to do that in such surroundings. But, my best advice is to  look for answered  hope!

Why? Because of  the definition of Hope: a feeling of expectation and wish for a certain thing to happen. 

  *Word  of  advice anyone being bullied or getting  the “mean girl” treatment from people who already graduated all school levels (Adults). They hate to see you happy more than to see you cry or run. They, hate to see you succeed more than fail. So, Live your life and become awsomer!!!!!

Again, I keep my  focus on  small things, because when I’m in despair, I want to see something big happen and right away. But, it rarely happens. So, I keep it  simple like, being thankful for being  blessed another day to win another battle, even if  it looks like am losing, to the opposing side. Even that long second, is a gift. (I mean seeing a second last that long is a gift in it’s self) So,  why not use it to hear Jehovah’s spirit in Jesus Christ, instead of its duration.

Or I could  be the light to someone else, unexpectedly and watch the joy bloom across someone’s face. Text, my friend and tell them, they’re in my prayers, too. Or text a funny and cute pet photo, just  any good and positive thing to get away from the chaos. As well as keeping busy, going for walks and a hobby helps, too. Also, having a meal outside of the workplace is a beacon of light. 

By, doing some of those things I feel better. The situation seems lighter  and less dramatic. Due to my change of emotions I seem to have overlooked some friendly supporters. I also seem ready, (which is the key to almost every healing process) to move on and take notice of  what other  gifts  God has granted me today. Because, mischief  never rests and is ready for its next opportunity.

Which is why I should never mind the sun’s not shining today. But, remember that it will. I  need to  keep my mind on the good stuff and the amazing  things that will soon happen. Because, even the thickest of fogs and darkness can’t last forever, but certain elements of the earth have shone through it all, since creation. No matter how long it seems. Which is  temporary. Because, Jehovah has given me strength  through Jesus Christ to make things possible during the seemly impossible times.  

So, note to self, “stay ready!”

©LeahJlyn2015

 

 

 

 

Release perfection

Go……. Release

Release, let everything go and impart it to the one who loves you best. Who is unseen, but yields to you more than any bird or flower that grows from the earth. Who sees you more beautiful than the sun setting across any sea. Or the sun rising over a desert dune or any exotic landscape. Because he regards these things in you, he’d like for his love to shine through you. Yes! Broken and rejected you.

As well as the one that’s not commercially beautiful. He wants his grace to shine through you like a diamond in the coal. Because, you’re just that precious to him. And you whose skin isn’t  perfect or too dark, He wants his blessings to shine from within you like the sun does through a cleft of the darkest alcove. Yes! He found you and became awe_struck from your beauty.

Also to you, who thinks every negative thing about yourself, due to  you weren’t made like everyone else. Which, leaves you to have to modify thing in  your everyday life. I am jealous of you, because his true ability shines through you. Like a priceless crown above his head.

Likewise, those who have lost. Because of tragedies. Nonetheless, they never give up on putting their lives and hometowns back on track. He, gives them the gift of resurrection and healing. Like, Jesus Christ, whose sits beside Him.

Stop……

Its FMF party ya’ll at Lisa Jo Baker’s Five Minute Friday Please come and join us on this fun and encouraging write~ Leah

I can do

When I’m having a difficult day:
1: I need to  reminded myself that God in Jesus Christ loves me.
2: Listen to some uplifting and upbeat music.
3: Try to make everyone laugh around me, and then I can feel the joy
4: Try to accomplish a goal small or great
5: talk to a good friend and laugh until my belly aches.
6: Go for a walk
7: Scream into my pillow, until my anger has dissipated
8: Try some yoga
9: if I can, do something nice for somebody, even a stranger
10: write about my day and then read it as the reader, but not as the storyteller. I do this as a method to step outside of myself to judge my day with rationality, and not my emotions
11: Clean the house, including everyone’s room. Unless I’m upset with them.
12: Have a really good cry
13: Crochet
14: Watch a really good movie with friends, family or alone
15: Pop some popcorn with extra butter and add chocolate m&ms
16: Walk someone’s dog
17: Give everyone around me a compliment and mean every word of it.
18: Go out for dinner with friends and other desserts only. Yeah, plural dessert 🙂
19: try to recollect a few good things of the day (laughter, smiles, thank yous, sun, rain on a dry day, 10 toes, etc.
20: And of course I do this because it’s possible as I’m praising & praying to Jehovah in the name of Jesus Christ.
21:) well, I contradict myself; I might have been complaining to The Lord about life, rather than praying

Entirely because, that whatever drama that’s playing in my mind or what the devil wants me to believe is true, I know the Heavenly Father got me. Yay, Jesus!

~ Leah

Humbleness is bliss

20140615-160500-57900060.jpg

1Peter: 5:6-7

Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

 

Every moment I see the meaning of Jehovah’s words through Jesus. To me that knowledge is a mini graduation in the daily school of living life.

it could be worse

You might  remember from an earlier post, last week at: Imperfectly_His, where I wrote briefly about being let go from a career opportunity, that would have led to larger projects. The post below is something I composed at the beginning of the week. When I had to face the fact I was discharged for my technical performance.

Sometimes I wish it would have been because I’m strong and opinionated. My race, my religion, or anything other than the above statement. Because those are common areas that I contend with in life. But, not for  something I imagined I was nicely skilled at. I said “nicely” because now I know, I need more experience.

Even so, I still hear in my head over and over them telling me, ” you’re not good enough” or ” You did your best, but, it wasn’t good enough.”

With that piece of history, please read the first installment of ‘It could be worse’ As I present you all with my tender feelings as I look for work. While I Humble myself and ask my part-time employers for more hours.

As well, I’m dealing with having another year (thankfully) of paying rent and utilities to my family. After experiencing a vivid but a fleeting moment of believing I was on the road to true independence.

Because that new job would have been our celebration of me being able to maintain a healthy lifestyle, for the past few years. Oh, Yeah! I’ m handling this set back on pure faith and no substances. Correction pure faith and lots of chocolate daily and carbs now and then.

 

 

                                                                 “ It could be worse “

Part I

The  quote ” It could be worse” is always the quote that one hears, either from a kind stranger or someone who knows your true circumstances.

Yes, the quote is true. But it doesn’t or shouldn’t devalue my pain. As long as I make solid efforts to improve. Then in that case I do have the right to feel the way I feel.  But to compare my problems to someone else’s or  to compare them to  problems of the world, than of course “It Could Be A lot Worse” Period!

Hence:
I would like to say as a independent and creative minded women, that’s it’s fine I don’t have it all together. It’s alright to experience the pain of disappointment, of a missed opportunity. Also, if I fail at something, it’s normal to have a bit of a slump.

Furthermore, it’s alright if I own up to my feelings and let the anguish and doubts, flow freely as tears from my eyes. To go even deeper, does owning up to my emotions make me appear weak? No! It will eventually make me stronger. Why? Because to admit defeat means I’ve accepted the truth.

However, as I stand in the center of a corridor, where one end is brilliant, obscure  with  new opportunities,  yet to open! Nevertheless, on the other end is a familiar place. It holds me where I stand. With its auditory sensation of emptiness. Every bit I still sense the vibration of the last door shutting behind me; On the path to a better career.

Because that closure is tender, still within me, I would like a moment to vent. I want to accuse everyone for my faults and actions. I would like to share that, being a Christian doesn’t exempt me from being a mortal being, overloaded with emotions. That I can’t always contain. As well, I’d like to share I may not immediately hear Jehovah’s words through Jesus Christ. ( Though I want to!) every time. Referable to the fact I may not like his instructive answer.

Because, my misfortune in the form of a  lost vocation. Which brings familiar emotions of feeling rejected, hopeless and stagnant. So, I’d like to invite you to join me for a couple of raw posts on how I am dealing with losing a recent business venture.

Which I’ am now, experiencing the effects of it. Hence I will be writing about how am dealing with it. While I battle with my confidence, and faith.

Until the following post, I Pray God in Jesus Christ can bless us all with a peace of mind, even if it’s just for a bit. Amen ~ Leah

Also for a sneak peek for the up and coming post please go to: Imperfectly_His
©imperfectly_leah2014

Your Name Here

If you need a spiritual pick me before a new week starts. please read this post!!!! Because, you are never alone~ Leah

im.Perfectly His

20140604-112102-40862873.jpg Psalm 94: 18,19 : When I said

” My foot is slipping,”

your unfailing love, Lord, supported me.

When anxiety was great with in me,

your consolation brought me joy 

Amen!

When I’m done with a difficult  day  at work, I really let  it break me down. It’s than that I, allow my insecurities to continue, to pull me in the wrong direction. Almost to the point of not feeling like I belong. Or useless.

As my spiralling self defeating thoughts continue. Such as:  I’m, I really a good person? Do I deserve any of the blessings , that God has instore for me? If any.  Why hasn’t  he, blessed me lately? Or I’ am , too stupid and self pitified to see my blessings.

(Yes! I said Self Pitified. Because, I mortified myself into that pity.)

All those question and more run through my head as I lay down…

View original post 236 more words